The Field Trip

by Randy Harritan

On Sunday morning First Lieutenant Hostetler, the Company Commander, came into the hooch and asked Harry if he'd ride shotgun with him to visit some nuns. Harry and the Lieutenant had gotten to know each other and spent time discussing the evils of the world. The Lieutenant was Catholic and seemed to know every nun in II Corps.

They loaded some supplies and, with the Lieutenant driving and Harry carrying his M-16, headed out to find the nuns. He had a map and, after an hour, they reached their destination.

This place was poor even by Vietnamese standards.  A cinderblock building stood in need of repair in the middle of a fenced compound. A lecherous looking, bent over individual loped out, opened the gate and waved them in. He stared up at them with head cocked and drool running from the corner of his mouth. The man didn't speak but made slurping sounds when he breathed. He was ugly and odious.

What kind of place is this?

It's a leper colony. The sisters are friends of mine.

“What? You brought me here with no forewarning. Hadn't lepers died out? Aren't they biblical abominations? Can we catch this stuff?”

“Calm down, Harry. I wouldn't come here if it were contagious. They need our help.”

They needed help all right. The place was wretched. The people were gnarled, bent and obviously had an objection to water:  a pig sty with no pigs. The Vietnamese shunned these folks and considered them cursed. Cast-offs. Not wanted in the cities or towns or villages. Even the place given them to live was third rate, a stinky bog. Jesus embraced the lepers, but Harry could not be so gracious. He, however, now understood the biblical symbolism. They did have a cow but she resembled the other inhabitants. A lanky thing with protruding ribs. She was a dowdy gray with long skinny legs, bulging eyes with no cud to chew. Her long sad face expressed indifference.

What kind of place is this?

Harry didn't mingle. He stayed close to the lieutenant. The nuns were in full habit despite the heat. Those black and white outfits tugged up around their necks with hats pulled low made a stink sauna. They smelled no better than their charges. Surely God would have understood shorts and a tee-shirt in this circumstance. The sister superior must have been very devout.

Harry was relieved when it was time to go. The trip back was uneventful. The lieutenant told him that the sisters were from his hometown and he felt a need to help them. Harry admired both the sisters and the lieutenant for caring for these poor rejected souls. His mother used to say, "There's a lid for every pot," and he was glad these good souls existed but didn't want to be one of them.

A month went by and the lieutenant asked Harry to accompany him again to the leper colony. This time he said “leper colony” up front. Guess he didn't need to be so coy. Harry and the lieutenant loaded the supplies and headed out. This time Harry drove. The lieutenant found out that Harry had his military driver’s license and insisted on being chauffeured. Harry chuckled to himself that he had been driven around by an officer in the first place.

As soon as they arrived at the leper colony the hackles went up on both of them. Something was up. No one came to open the gate and Harry saw the cow lying on its side, tongue hanging from her mouth and touching the ground. Cautiously they opened the gate to enter the compound. The smell was still there but there was the added odor of blood and death. Stillness greeted them. Lifeless bodies arranged as only happenstance can do. God’s final fuck-you to these miserable souls.

 The pale horse of death was traveling silently beside them as they made their way to the main building. Crouched and wary. Harry and the lieutenant worked their way through bodies not stopping to check them. Ugly in life, grotesque in death. Some staring at nothing and others hiding their faces as if ashamed to have existed. Fauna in the distance moving, shaking. Daring the two men to do something about the tragedy.

They made their way to the block building where they found the two nuns. The unblinking eye of the window saw everything but refused to comment. Executed. Shot at close range in the head. Some of the blood was still liquid. They had missed the murders by only a few minutes. The lieutenant, repining, needed time to gather himself. He had just lost a couple of close friends. Non-combatants. Ladies of God. A senseless deed committed in a pre-historic rage that led to the unthinkable. Harry stood guard at the door wondering why the flower of American youth was asked to fight and die for these people.

The trip back to base camp was long and quiet. Harry's heart ached for the lieutenant. He was hurting. They drove in the stillness of death. Harry's only thought was "Why did they have to kill the cow?"

 

                                                             POST SCRIPT

For years, when this incident crept back into Harry's mind, he would lament the death of the cow. Oh, that poor creature, not hurting anyone, minding its own business. Killed for being. Not letting his mind wander from that iteration.

Then one day, nearly fourteen years later, reality wrapped its bony fingers around Harry's conscience and demanded he deal with the tragedy. All that senseless death. The Sisters, one with her head turned looking at her canonical sibling. The other, the first one executed, still on her knees with her head on the floor and most of her face missing. The poor afflicted men and women who were terrorized and shot for being sick. The nihilistic perpetrators who were undoubtedly South Vietnamese, not the enemy.

 Was he sick? Insane? How could he grieve for the cow in the midst of all that horror? Why did he not care for the humans? His drinking increased. His sense of self-loathing reared, and the depression was ever present. He would close his office door near lunch time so no-one could invite him to lunch, then feel rejected because they didn't. He was spiraling into an abyss.

He was alone. Desperate. His wife allowed no talk about the war: Her position being she had it rough too while he was gone.  He had two beautiful children, a great job, in-laws whom he loved. He had to figure out what was wrong.

 Harry's Mother-in-Law was diagnosed with lung cancer in 1984 and died within six months. His nonchalant attitude surprised everyone, especially Harry. He knew help was needed and fast, but where?

Harry joined Alcoholics Anonymous, worked the program and, with the help of like afflicted men and women, worked his way back to sanity. Eventually Harry came to the realization of the symbolism of the cow. The coping mechanism it provided. The short-circuit it prevented. How it enabled him to continue, in a fashion, with his life. He was thankful for that cow and could finally replace its singularity with reality.


The Eyes

by Glenn Miscikowski

Accepting the invitation to go deer hunting in Northern Wisconsin with Mr. B and his sons on their farm became a no brainer.  The first deer hunt after leaving Nam six months earlier.  Arriving at 3:00 PM, Mr. B opened the car door and hugged me.  “Glad you made it.”

The trips became an annual ritual of friendship.  These trips renewed friendships, talking about past experiences and new challenges, sitting by the fireplace with a Budweiser.  The bellowing laughs commenced after anecdotes of the latest blunders, old girl friends or a new car.  Everyone shared one crazy event with the group, no exceptions.

The talks left me disconnected for an essential element was missing.  Nothing changed between us yet everything changed around me.  Did they feel the void as well? 

The fourteen-point buck roaming the woods became the topic of conversation at breakfast.  Deer stands were selected based on buck sightings over the last week.  Mr. B placed salt blocks and bushels of apples at several sites.  

I located a comfortable deer stand for the first day of the hunt; the deer are following their normal patterns, not spooked. My deer stand provided stealth, visibility and comfort.  With a bit of luck, a buck may cross my path.  Mr. B walked pushing the deer through the area; arthritis affected him while sitting.   

The temperature opening day dipped below freezing coupled with a mesmeric, gentle falling snow.  The large snowflakes blocked visibility to a degree.  I cuddled up to a couple of large toppled maple tree stumps.  My back and head rested comfortably on the stumps.

The lack of sleep and comfortable surroundings produced the sedative, out like a light. I sprang up hearing my name. Mr. B stood not ten yards from me.

“Glenn, Glenn,”

“I’m here.” 

“Did you see him?”

“See who?” 

“I was trailing the big buck for the last three hours.  The swamp swallowed his tracks.  I got a glimpse of him; he’s magnificent.”  He knew I dozed off.  I looked like a snowman.  He looked at me, then proceeded to backtrack trying to pick up the tracks.   

The trips became an annual ritual of friendship.

I brushed the snow off my jacket and pants, became vigilant of the surroundings.  The snow dropped a beautiful white carpet quieting the woods. A couple of grey squirrels chased each other through the trees. They showed off their agility.  Slivers of sun flashed through the woods causing momentary blindness ricocheting off the snow.     

The squirrels stopped chasing. I heard the audible muffled clump, clump.  An animal moved stealthily through the woods towards me.  My body became rigid. Breathing became difficult to control. The ambushes in Nam triggered the identical response. My hands squeezed hard on the stock. The inside of the gloves felt damp. Come-on, clear your head, get back to the world. What the hell is wrong with you? 

God almighty, the buck walked right out in the open not twenty yards from me.  This magnificent creature sported an enormous rack.  He stood broadside. He dared me to pull the trigger. The black eyes remained fixed on me. I raised my weapon and depressed the safety. My finger applied pressure to the trigger with the scope cross hairs on the beast.  This buck is mine. 

The trigger wouldn’t depress.  There must be something wrong with the gun. What the hell is wrong with me?  Shoot him, Shoot him.  Looking through the scope I took two deep breaths and tried to relax.      

The buck remained motionless for ten seconds, snorted at me and dipped its head, returning in the direction of the swamp.

Two minutes passed, Bang, Bang, Bang.

I heard Mr. B yelling. The magnificent creature never had a chance. 

The black eyes stared at me seeing him on the white carpet.  I wanted to look away but wouldn’t. The innocence in those eyes haunted me.  One of God’s creatures deserved a better fate. 

My eyes watered looking at the beast.  Mr. B cocked his head giving me an odd stare.  I shouldn’t care what others think. I earned the right to express my feelings.  In Nam, emotion demonstrated a sign of weakness even when one of my men went down.  For me to show an outward show of emotion became rare, but for this creature.   

This buck earned my respect; he deserved to roam the woods managing a harem of does.        

 The local bar celebration became loud and joyous continuing into the wee hours of the morning. Mr. B gave willing hunters detailed explanations how he bagged the beast.  The stories changed as the bottles stacked up.  He became the county hero for a season.

Mr. B looked disappointed after telling him my decision to head home a day early.  My child being sick became the excuse.  I knew after today’s hunt something is wrong with me. 

 Mr. B hugged me.  “Take care of yourself.”

The drive home became a personal reflection.

Two friends part knowing one of you will not return.  Mr. B witnessed my change in demeanor. I wished we talked about what happened.  No one, not even my wife, initiated a conversation about the past.

The creature’s eyes staring at me transported me back to another time, another world.  Sgt. N smiled at me as he crossed the stream climbing up the hill onto a wide trail. He was the third soldier in his column.  I heard the haunting blast.  The chilling reminder that shit happens.  Sgt. N stepped on a 155 or anti-tank mine.

I still remember screaming, running to the disaster, “Why Lord, Why?”

Descending the conical hole, Sgt. N’s eyes were vacant, staring out into the nothingness.  I closed the eye lids of my fallen comrade. The medic and I put half a soldier in a poncho.  I never cried after carrying and gently setting him in the chopper.

Concentrating on Sgt. N’s eyes and not the mutilation of his body kept my sanity in check. If I let my emotions surface no telling the outcome.  

My recurring dreams continue to haunt me seeing Sgt. N’s eyes staring at me.  The hollow stare rivets my psyche.  Why him, and not me, on the chopper. 

Strange, I would die for my men but never cried for a fallen soldier. My eyes watered for the beast. The enemy never received my dignity. Seeing bodies after a firefight or baking in the sun on a trail, they became an inanimate doll. A doll never possesses a soul. I didn’t hate the enemy.  Survival became the only objective for my men and myself; bring my men home. If the Vietnamese invaded our space with weapons, we retaliated. 

Not pulling the trigger on the beast went against all of my past experiences.  The beast lived for another two minutes.  In the scheme of life, my action made no difference.  Somehow, those two minutes meant a world of satisfaction to me.

I’m trying to understand the mask I wear. If I pulled the mask off my face, would I still be who I think I am? I feel a numbness and coolness to life.  Deep emotion eludes me.   I couldn’t cry holding my son for the first time returning from Nam, but for the beast I cried.    

The suffering and death are in the past.  I’m trying to get to a better place. I hope this is the first step in feeling life.    


Revelation

by Richard H. Geisel

How long does one repent and hide inside their skin?

Attending VA PTSD group yesterday reliving the past morphed into tight chest, sweat and anxiety attacks.  In attempt to talk about my dreams and stay detached the stoic wall collapsed. I went home exhausted and couldn’t wait for the safety of my bed and the covers over my head.  Once inside my cocoon the dreams started.

It is 4:30AM and I awake crying. The room is dark with a sliver of moonlight piercing the shutters. Not to disturb my wife, I go downstairs to my refuge, the morning sunroom. The garden is dark, security lights mysteriously off. No signs of birds, squirrels or deer. Only the subtle edges of the shrubs and flowers are visible. The garden had changed. This is not the once proud statuesque garden where my thoughts would walk.  Quietness pounded in my ears.

Sitting motionless I stopped crying, my ribcage hurt from the heaving.  Thoughts wave over me as I relive the dream.

Mountainous emerald ancient boxwoods created a tunnel to travel through, a time tunnel. I was walking in the alley behind my home trying to get home.  Each time I approached the back chain link gate tightness twisted my stomach, only one small step and I was home. Go through that gate.  Don’t be afraid.  My family is there, safety is there.  For years I had relived this dream, this Groundhog Day dream. No reunion, no safety, no family.

Tonight, as I walked towards the gate a small figure was waiting and waving.  Golden curls circled her cherub face, her toes gently touching the ground.  As I approached the petite girl stretched out her hand towards mine.                                                                              

 Should I take her hand or run. Is she real?  Does she want to harm me? Hundreds of times I got to the gate but could not touch the latch.  Fear froze me to the ground.  Before I was able to move she caressed my hand in hers.

“Daddy, it is alright, don’t be afraid, please come in with me.  Mommy and I have been waiting for you for a very long time”.

I started weeping deep in my stomach. Suddenly I was awake in bed, my wife slowing breathing beside me.

The beauty of the garden was gone, withered in my mind. The bile taste of fear growing in my throat.

 A distant steady clopping grew louder. The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse are riding tonight. They are coming for retribution, for payment.

How often the sunroom and garden had given me peace. There is no peace in my dreams and the PTSD group is less than a band aid on the inner fear.

Is the reality there is no garden and my retreat in the sunroom is a dream? Does relief only come when you pay, and who do you pay?

How long does one repent and hide inside their skin?

Will my life be nothing more?

Can the little girl find me again and bring me through the gate into the peace that has no name?

I pray the little girl will find me again and bring me home.



Crashing an Officer's Only Air Cav Party

by Steve Tedder

I saw information online about a reunion for the Cav unit of the 101st Airborne Division, “Alpha Troop”.

There were a lot of pictures and info about the unit but something was a little off. All of the pictures and stories were of pilots, both Warrant and Commissioned. This wasn’t about the entire unit, only the pilots. I discovered that they were having a reunion in conjunction with the Vietnam Helicopter Pilots Association in Nashville.

My curiosity brought me to look them up. Not only did I find them, but they’re actually having a reunion in two days? I start blabbering to my wife about it, saying we have to go. She reminded me that I had not been invited; it was for pilots only. Plus she was taking our daughters to Kings Dominion. Some damn kid named Britney Spears was performing. I responded in the only way I could, “Are you kidding me. You would pass this up for a nobody singer in a short skirt? This was Alpha Troop! You know, A Troop, 2nd Squadron, 17th Air Cavalry, 101st Airborne.”

She did have a point, the girls came first. I would just have to go alone. But come hell or high water, I was going.

Mid-way between Knoxville and Nashville reminded me of the Skyline Drive. The mountains and valleys were beautiful. This is when the enormity of what I was doing set in. Perhaps this is kind of rash and stupid. The reunion is for pilots only and I was not a pilot. Maybe I should just turn around and go back home.

All the way to Nashville, the only thing that kept me headed west was I had nothing to lose and a lot to gain. The worst that could happen would be told nice seeing you, now kiss off. But maybe a few of my pilots would be there, the ones I had flown with.

I did not have to ask for directions to Alpha Troop once I entered the hotel. A large sign in the lobby said “Welcome Alpha Troop” with an arrow pointing the way to the “Hooch”. I saw twenty guys sitting at the tables. Most were talking and drinking beer. I tried to recognize anyone. Nope, I didn’t have a clue who these people are. Damn, what do I do now?

I walked around for a better look, after all it had been 27 years. I grabbed a beer from a cooler. Still no one I knew, but they were definitely Alpha Troop as most were wearing Cav hats. Several of the guys sat watching an 8mm home film one of the pilots had taken in the Ashau Valley with a camera taped to his helmet. The film showed the Cobra pilot’s view of making gun runs on enemies running in the open. Rockets, mini-guns, Blooper, the whole nine yards.

A guy comes up beside me and I glance to see if I know him. I can’t exactly place him. He heads for the door. Then it hits me. Damn, it’s Mr. Todd without the handlebar mustache. I give chase but he’s in a hurry and I don’t want to run up behind him. So I yell out, “Hey, El Toddo. Is that you?”  He twirled around and said, “No one’s called me that in twenty-five years. Who the hell are you?”

 “Steve Tedder, do you remember me? I flew Observer in the Scouts”.

With a big grin he put me in a bear hug, “Of course I remember you, how the hell are you?” I replied fine, married with three daughters, living in Virginia.

I asked him where he lived.

“Why do you ask?”

I told him that I had often wondered if he was living in an underpass somewhere in L.A. I remember him getting shot and crashing on the side of a mountain.

Laughing, he pulled his pant leg up to show me the damndest scar I had ever seen, half of his calf was gone and the skin was white and gnarly. He almost lost it after getting hit by a .51 cal. After nine months in the hospital the Army discharged him. His wound motivated him to go back to college and get his degree.  Then law school. He gave me his business card.

“Damn, you are really doing well.” The card identified Richard Todd as the Assistant Attorney General for the state of Alaska.

I asked El Toddo, “You don’t think they’ll kick me out do you? This is for pilots and I wasn’t invited.”

He told me to follow him back into the Hooch where he introduced me to Bob Karig, the president of the association. I was told that I was more than welcome. Bob led me to a table where several men were sitting and introduced me, telling them that I had flown with the troop as an Observer.

The word spread that a non-pilot member was in attendance and a few of the guys I knew came over.

The first was Mike Streeper who I had never flown with but remembered for his immaturity and brashness. Mike had also been medevac’d home from Nam, having been shot down and fractured his skull from crashing through triple canopy. Glen Veno, who I always assumed was Canadian, talked with me about our time together. When I asked him why he painted a Maple Leaf Flag on his helmet he stated that he grew up in Michigan and just loved Canada.

Another pilot I recognized was Gary Green. One of the most highly decorated pilots of the Viet Nam War. 1st Lt. Gerald “Gary” Green received the Distinguished Service Cross, 3 Silver Stars, 4Distinguished Flying Crosses, Bronze Star w/”V”, 4 Purple Hearts. 60 Air Medals, Vietnamese Cross of Gallantry, plus he had one of the few Battlefield Commissions of Vietnam, promoted to First Lieutenant.

Gary Green was definitely a legend, not just in Alpha Troop but among all Vietnam Pilots. There was just one problem. I didn’t like him one bit. Not only was he a damn lunatic he also had a mean streak when it came to practical jokes. Our last encounter hadn’t gone well at all. I did learn from Veno that Gary was medically retired from the Army while stationed in Germany not long after Vietnam. He was driving recklessly through a village on his motorcycle, crashed and had a leg amputated. Next he went to South America as a flying mercenary. He returned to the states a multi-millionaire, bought a large ranch in Colorado and owned several aircraft and his own airstrip. Every year Gary invited his friends from Nam for a week of camping and horseback riding.

Before leaving the hotel Bob Karig invited me to accompany them to Ft. Campbell the next day. When I offered to pay he replied it was too late for that. Everything was paid in advance and he didn’t want to do any extra paperwork.

The next morning I got on the bus with Streeper and Veno for the ride to Campbell. We were welcomed by the entire troop, then went to the airfield for a demonstration of the helicopters currently used by the Army. They would also have a Cobra and LOH fly in to show the new guys a piece of their heritage. The commanding general of the 101st was also expected to greet us.

When I asked why a Two-Star General would do that I was told our very own Major Teddy Allen had gone on bigger and better things after Nam. He retired as a Two-Star and in the 80’s had commanded the101st Airborne. I remembered him as a demanding typical West Pointer who flew Missions as C&C (Command and Control). We certainly didn’t cross paths in a social way.

They had actually rolled out a red carpet for us.

They had actually rolled out a red carpet for us. We had a flyover of Apaches and listened to a very long speech from the two generals. Then something that none of us expected happened. The entire 2nd Squadron of the 17th Air Cavalry came out in formation and saluted us, which we returned. I was actually feeling proud to be a Viet Nam Vet.

We then went to the “Dining Facility” as they now call the Mess Hall. To say we were amazed at the changes from our Army to this All-Volunteer Army is an understatement. It had everything that a 4-Star restaurant could offer, even several salad and desert bars, everything had the calories listed beside each item. I couldn’t believe it.

A voice off to my rear asked if the seat next to me is taken. I replied no and was surprised to have Gary Green and his wife sit beside me. He asked how everything was going and if I was enjoying seeing what the new Army was all about. We talked through the entire meal. Just like old friends. He even insisted that I come out next year with my family and visit him on the ranch. Me???

Shortly afterwards we went to the Squadron Flight Line and they had their toys on display. The OH-6A Loaches that we flew were a thing of the past. The Army had upgraded the old OH-58A Kiowas that I had flown as an Observer in 1970. They were now called OH-58D Kiowa Warriors and they looked nothing like the originals, were outfitted with cameras, computers and infra-red sensors. They even had rocket pods in addition to the mini-gun, which is basically all we carried, plus my M-60.

When I asked about the funny looking mast on top of the rotor I was told it was a camera/sensor and the pilot could see what was around him by looking at the video monitor. The Captain giving the orientation explained how they trained to hover in the trees with only the mast showing. Once a target was detected they would pop up, fire missiles and beat feet before the enemy could react.

I was flabbergasted. “What about the little bastard underneath you with an AK, wouldn’t that make you a great target, just hovering there?” He tried to explain that wouldn’t happen as the area would be secured. Oh well, they’ll learn just like the Army always does - the hard way.

The Captain that had given the talk on the Kiowa came up. I asked him to look inside the LOH at our Turn and Bank Indicator. He stuck his head inside and said that he couldn’t see it. I laughed and told him that I would hang a nut on a string from the front strut and that’s what we used. He simply shook his head and laughed.

Finally the moment we had all been anticipating arrived. A familiar WHOP WHOP WHOP and buzzing sound came with two of the most beloved helicopters from our time making straight for us. A LOH followed by a Cobra from the Army Heritage Museum landed close to the Kiowa. After shutting the engines down, our entire group went up and checked them out.

The LOH was outfitted with a mini-gun and the doors had been removed, looking exactly like it did in Nam. Not only that but it had the marking of Alpha Troop with the red band on the tail boom and crossed sabers on the nose. This wasn’t done just for us, it turned out this particular LOH had been assigned to Alpha Troop in 1971. The people at the museum had marked it to show its history.

Streeper and I waited our turn and climbed in, he in the right seat, I in the left. All I needed was an M-60 Machine Gun on a bungee cord and a box of grenades. Memories just flooded back; I hadn’t been this happy in many years. Gary Green came up beside Streeper and said he wanted to trade places. I started to get out and he said that he wanted a picture with me sitting in the Observer’s seat.

After a few moments I whispered and asked if he remembered the last time we had sat like this.

He said it was something he’d never forgotten. He also said that it was one of the few times he could remember being scared shitless. I asked why he hadn’t had me court-martialed for threatening him. He said I was a good observer and that he may have reacted the same way. Wow, my whole world went round and around when he said that.

Here is what happened so long ago.

I had been in the troop less than a month before I was scheduled to fly with him. A few of my fellow Scouts warned me that he was a great pilot but he also had no fear of dying. That he could do things with a Cobra or Loach that no one dreamed possible. Hell, he even landed once in the A Shau and captured an NVA soldier.

We were flying at two thousand feet with the Cobras and a Huey behind us. As we approached the mountain range north of the valley I noticed we were slowly increasing our altitude. I didn’t give it much thought. I’m just sitting there enjoying the scenery. Out of nowhere the aircraft violently slips around pointed in the opposite direction. At the same time every warning light on the instrument panel lit up flashing like a damn Christmas tree and the warning buzzer screamed in my earphones. We’re dropping like a stone right over the top of a jungle covered mountain. HOLY SHIT, I’m going to die. I squeezed my eyes shut waiting and wondering if I’d feel anything when all of a sudden the noise stops and we’re flying again. I opened my eyes and everything was back to normal, no noises, no warning lights no falling. Then I heard the laughter in my earphones, Gary laughing his ass off. I had pilots practice auto-rotations many times before. But never a 180 degree auto-rotation and never without knowing what he was going to do beforehand.

I thought I was going to die and this asshole did it on purpose? Watch this, you son of a bitch. I reached down and pulled out my .45 from its holster between my legs. Cocking the hammer back I pointed mere inches from his head and said, “You ***, you ever do that again and I’ll blow your *** brains out. Do you *** hear me???  Our eyes met and I could tell I had gotten his attention.

My hands were still shaking as I replaced the pistol back into its holster. We didn’t say much after that.

We continued out and completed our mission. He did live up to his reputation by hovering around a lot but we did find and kill enemies with no damage to us. As soon as we returned to Phu Bai I just knew that I was going to LBJ (Long Bien Jail) but nothing ever came of it. I did inform our platoon leader Captain Robert Baker that I would never fly with that mental subject again, and I never did.

But here we were back in the world twenty-seven years later and he’s acting like we’re best friends.

I spent an uneventful day on Saturday meeting new friends and mostly talking about our lives since Viet Nam. We walked around Nashville and not once did I feel out of place. I was invited everywhere and participated in all of the events. I learned a valuable lesson: whether we served in Alpha Troop at the same time or not we were truly a “Band of Brothers.”

Sunday morning we had a farewell breakfast. Many of the guys said a few words about the great time they had renewing old friendships. At the very end I stood and said my piece.

“I want to thank all of you for not only allowing me the honor to be with you but making me feel like a Brother. I started out as a Grunt in my tour and graduated to Flying Observer in the Air Cavalry. I did that not for the hot meals and safe bed to sleep in at night but simply because I wanted to be the best and you all know that we were the best in any branch of the military. You guys are the bravest pilots the world has ever known and it’s an honor to be considered a friend among you. However, let me tell you one *** thing about this reunion, without the enlisted men who flew with you, that you depended on to keep the ships flying by staying up all night replacing engines or patching bullet holes while you were drinking beer at the Officers Club. Yes, I did fly beside you and volunteered to do so. But, I never had a say on where we were going or was even asked if I thought some of the crazy things you did were a good idea. Make no mistake, my trust in you to bring us both back was absolute. But I must say, if you wish to continue calling this the Alpha Troop reunion you should include the enlisted men who supported and fought alongside you. Thank you again for welcoming me so warmly.” Amazingly every one of them stood and applauded. A lot of them actually came up to me and thanked me.

I returned home happier than I’d been in a long time. I told my wife that she and the girls really missed a wonderful time to which I was told that they actually enjoyed the Britany Spears Concert.

In 2001 the Reunion was again held in Nashville with over 120 members of Alpha Troop in attendance. Both pilots and enlisted men. Two years later we had over 160 members show up and I got to meet up with most of my fellow crew chiefs and Observers. Plus my wife and daughters were with me.